Definition of frusturation
Tuesday, April 10th, 2007So what does one do when one is frustrated like this? I can’t go into this much, but damn. Everybody say “Yay Pat! You try really hard in life.”
Well I do that myself. I’m pretty convinced it isn’t making a difference. One wonders if I’m causing the issue in things. I think I do, but it’s because I’m a lying cheating stealer. No, I’m not though. I seem to think I am or deserve the treatment of one anyway. Hmmmm. Guess that’s not true.
There’s a line in that “A Scanner Darkly” film that’s really been troubling me since I heard it last night. Kianu’s character hits his head on a cabinet, and proceeds to curse and be angry. He says something really profound.
“I didn’t hate the cabinet… I hated my life.”
But his character didn’t DO anything good from there. He didn’t get anything good out of it. He ended up with a bunch of fucking retards living at his house.
So what do I do now?
Where do I go?
God damn it. Is it the cabinet? Or my life?